The biggest, scariest haunted house of them all. My mind.

New Years Eve…And 17,000 miles away.

devianthopes2 — Thu, 01 Jan 2009 03:59:01 +0000

Hello Blog,

It’s been a long day. I miss Kiwi more it seems when I am upset or sad… It’s 2009 there and we are still four hours away from it. I am most so upset over the fact that I am worried that this will somehow go wrong.. actually I am not what I am worried about.

I need a life honestly….

When Does the Chaos End…

devianthopes2 — Mon, 22 Dec 2008 07:46:56 +0000

Ever feel like no matter how much you do to be a good person, you some how fail miserably? Ha, me too. I know its a tight Christmas and we are not exchanging gifts, but I don’t know what else do do. How do I honestly not get anything for anyone. I know I will get money in at least two of my Christmas cards… How does this seem fair? Oh thats right, its not.

In other news, Hope is having men issues….. ugh, she can’t make up her mind or rather, the guys worth dating either have someone, aren’t interested, or live in other countries. Wow, maybe Jen was right. “Men are like parking spots, all the good ones are taken, and the rest are handicapped.” In all fairness, I park in handicapped spots, perhaps I should park in one now…

All the people that surround me have “significant others” and it’s Christmas time. Is this destined to be another alone year? Please dear God, don’t let this be the lonely year lol…

I seem to be listening to one song in particular a lot today, reminds me of what kind of man I refuse to go back to…

good night all… listen to the song.

“What you see is what you get” LIES!

devianthopes2 — Thu, 27 Nov 2008 21:56:22 +0000

Hello Everyone!

Hola! Well I have recently decided, that I am no longer going to be overweight! I am taking control of my life. If I can’t control how I look, than I can’t control anything… so…

I am excited to say, that I have actually enjoyed day one of the rest of my healthy life. I have really started to think about what I want and that I am the only one who is going to help me achieve that goal. My mind is still slightly in a state of bliss after my work out… I never really realized that a work out could make me hyper yet relaxed and calm in my mind.

Perhaps working out is not just a physical healthy thing to do, but maybe, just maybe it may help my bi-polar disorder. I am not manic, nor am I depressed, I am somewhere in the middle which if I am not mistaken, is normal. wow…

I am promising myself and the world one thing…

In 6 months, when I walk into a room…

… Jaws will drop.

As Lucus pointed out, I am facially gorgeous (sorry to come off conceated), now its time to make the rest of me match…

“So, America, when you see me next, I will be thinner, more confident and kicking ass and taking names.”

I kissed a girl… and it floored him….

devianthopes2 — Thu, 27 Nov 2008 09:21:10 +0000

Hey everyone,

So, Jen has been trying so utterly hard to get rid of her ex… He just doesn’t get the point of breaking up. So Jen and I being bestfriends came up with a plan to get the point across. There was always a running joke in highschool that we might as well be married, but I never thought we would use that to get rid of a stalker ex-boyfriend.

So Jose calls her like 100 times a day, and shows up at like 1am expecting her to drop everything and just do what he wants. Well he came over tonight, and he was like all wanting to talk to her about shit, aka “I love you, and I miss you, and I want to be with you.” SO! I let them talk for a few minutes outside while I talked to Johnny for a minute, but then I had the greatest idea…

I get up and say goodbye to Johnny and then walk outside. I tell Jen I have to go, and then I give her a really big hug. Before I pull away from her I turn to kiss her, she totally followed along and turn enough to kiss right on the lips!!! We completely kept a straight face and pulled it off… told her I loved her then walked away…

She called me after telling me that he broke down in tears and said he would leave her alone and that he understood….

EPIC SUCESS!!!

My ringtone says it all… and for the record I am not gay, but I do what I gotta do to keep my bestfriend sane and safe!!!

Dillweed

devianthopes2 — Wed, 26 Nov 2008 22:50:14 +0000

I did it… I got the job. Not sure if I told you that in my last blog or not, but I did… I start on Monday… that’s so exciting. I am way stoked…

Oh!! Tommorrow is Thanksgiving!!! Dreaded day for people on diets, but I will end up working it off in the gym (aka my garage for the time being).

Moms baking pies right now, and they smell really good… how unfair is that? Its not even Thanksgiving yet and she baking pies that I won’t even get to eat tommorrow. Unless I want to be running for 4 hours afterwards. I am going over to Jen’s later on to have an early Thanksgiving dinner with her, mom, Johnny and Brittney. Jose came by her house last night and it was really ridiculous, even Jen thinks he is stalking her now. I ended up having to make up some excuse for Jen and I to leave so that he would have to go away too. It was awful… then he staked us out until we left… we drove around the complex for a good while then when we were coming back in he was leaving, so I pulled into a parking spot and turned my car off quickly and we both layed our seats back so that when he drove by it looked empty…

How incredibly lame is he? I realize he lost the most amazing girl he will ever hope to find in the entire world, but thats his stupidity, stop punishing her for your mistakes you dillweed.

Ugh, wow. I so need a life that involves bigger word usage than that of “dillweed”.

Anyways, I will sign out now, I am going to go eat lunch and attempt to get what I need to get done, done. SO I can head over to Jens… she’s cooking ham… yummmm.

Addicted to the fast lane…

devianthopes2 — Tue, 25 Nov 2008 05:50:55 +0000

Alright alright, maybe perhaps I am really addicted to the fast lane. The constant running and pushing to get things accomplished. I love the competition… The thrill of knowing that I am a big dog in this dog eat dog world. I walked into my interview today with Vector Marketing, and I knew I had it in the bag… I went in confident, and left even more so. I shook Tony Delmercado’s hand with a firm and steady grip almost saying, “I am here to win.” I sat at his desk, actually managed to cross one leg over the other in my business suit. I gave thought out detailed answers and said them with ease. I felt strangely comfortable in his office while looking him dead in the eyes and speaking like I had memorized the most perfect answers.

I just got the call back… not even 4 hours after my interview and he is asking me to join his team. Epic success!

I am in the game and I don’t intent on losing, actually I don’t intend on settling for anything less than perfect.

Little ME….. Big Congressman

devianthopes2 — Wed, 22 Oct 2008 20:09:59 +0000

Oh my god!!! I am speaking in front of congressmen tomorrow. I am slightly nervous. Not that I am speak, but for the sheer fact the I am. Tomorrow is the “Candidates Night” at Ventano’s Italian Restaurant at 5:30pm. Jon Porter, a United States Congressmen will be there… I am introducing him! Me, little me. A 20 year old college student will be doing something that big. What did I do in my life to be introducing a important person?

Wow… I can’t even type a blog I am to excited…

Welcome to my mind!

devianthopes2 — Mon, 20 Oct 2008 19:44:09 +0000

Hello Everyone,

This is the first of my blogs here on wordpress. As you can see, I call me mind a “haunted house”, the reason being is you will all see some really odd and off-beat blogs from here on out. I have already squared with the idea that most of my blogs seem slightly sociopathic and psychopathic. Although I am not homocidal or suicidal I figure that sometimes my blogs may seem that way… so fair warning right now.

Anyways, Right now I am sitting in my psychology class listening to Dr. Baskt talk about “early and middle childhood socialization”. As much as I enjoy this class, I tend to find that I need to be doing something else as well as listening to him go on and on about the topic. All I can say is at least I show up to class and do my work, some people I see once a month in this class.

What is scary is the fact that I am listening to him while he talks about “Parenting Styles” and the outcome of the child of each style. Unfortunatley Vanessa and Sabrina fall under the category of “immature and dependant” as adults unless their mother decides to change the way she is parenting them. That really bothers me. I love them so much that to think that someday they could be out there when they are adults having meaningless sex and doing drugs, absolutely kills me.

I am out of here pretty soon so I will end this blog at that… thanks for reading my very first blog.

Deviant